Fannie Lou Hamer was an African American Civil Rights activist of the 60s/70s.
She was well acquainted with the poverty and violence in the Jim Crow South.
A phrase she coined, in all of her activism, was “I am sick and tired of bring sick and tired.”
I feel you, Fannie, because I am tired, tired of being watched in unexpected places.
What do I mean when I say I am tired of being watched in unexpected places?
Well, i have lived most of my life being watched in unexpected places.
Here’s the deal…
I am tired of being watched in places where it is assumed I will not be or presumed I should not be.
Watched by startled eyes that mark my every move to make sure I live up to their lowered expectations.
Expectations gleaned from a family book of prejudices or a media that reports its own brand of digital apartheid or stereotypes paraded behind closed doors of private clubs or redlines rigidly drafted onto stark white paper strewn across dark walnut tables in a good old boys boardroom.
I am weary of others deeming denial as my birthright while privilege continues to labor to keep me in a place as defined by them.
I am sick and tired of my concerns being dismissed as yesterday’s old news while microaggressions nip at my heels day after day after day.
Yep, I, too, am sick and tired of being sick and tired, so dear people, please be forewarned from this day forward.
Before you bring me any of your foolishness, fine tuned in the errancy of your self-entitled pride, take a deep breath, step back and re-think how you think before you speak.
Because if you don’t, I most definitely will “clap back.”.
Be very, very sure, and rest assured, that the next time you dismiss my truth, I will call you on it and just so you are not uninformed, here is my truth: I, too, am sick and tired of being sick and tired!
Where’s my mic?